A Roller Coaster

Ive heard that phrase, "life is like a rollercoaster" alot,
but i always thot, there was a period of good, then
it goes all bad, but it lasted like a couple weeks at least...
but in these past few days, its been THE WORST
roller coaster ever....
sure there were alot of good things, sadies for one,
but after that wow, ive never felt this much like
anger and happy mixed at one time.
i would be all angry, then i would talk to my frends
and just being with them would cheer me up,
but after they leave, im just angry again, and the
braces thing just makes it worse. the only time ive
punch walls, and messed up a bunch of stuff, imagined
me killing somebody, and beign so angry i started tearing up
wass a looooooonnggg time ago, but these days, wow,
it hasnt been that bad, but ive had so much anger for some reason
hannah posted a blog saying that its the little things that
can really make a difference, and that is so true,
all the little things ppl have been doing to me, like maybe even as a joke
got me so pissed. if i was ever like not responding or something
at a ppoint, im sorry ahaha
but i think i just need more time to get rid of my anger and most of my emotions for now....

Stilllllllllll Pretty Fun :D

So today, I wanted to go to Kristens house
so I called john, and he was practicing at rogers house
for the talent show, so i was like ok
text me when your done, and i was just doing
math and studying and he told me to come at 3
so i started walking, then it rained like crazy and
i saw a rainbow ahahaha Roger gave us a ride
and i called kristen, but i didnt know that she was
leaving at 4, sooo we just went to nrb, and called
up andrew, and we sang for like a good hour :D
thennnn we didnt wanna go home, so we tried
deciding wat do to, so andrew just went aroundd
and i sed turns to take, and john was supposed to
say stop, but he never did, so we went to mcdonalds
but their 2 big macs for 3.50 deal wasnt going on
anymore so we went to burgerking, which was in
the Zion Market mall thing at ate like 2 double
cheeseburgers each for a dollar. MEANINGGG
we drove around for an hour just to come back
to the place we started ahahaha. We got dropped
off and i just watched boys over flowers and family
the rest of the day :D:D yayyy i love even days
exept for math >:[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[

o yeaaaa me and john sang 애인있어요 by DnT like
3? 4? times at nrbbb WHOOOOOO i love that song
:D

Woahhh Still Fun!

So yesterday after church,
I found out i was goign snowboarding
sooo we bought some stuff and left
with justin ryoos family, even tho
justin didnt goo. wow, i got ALOT
better than the last time i went :]]
only fell down like 5 times and that
was cuz some stupid ppl like fell down
in front of me, and like cut me and stuff
anywayy, my body is still REALLYYY
tired ahaha mannn gotta start hww T_T
i hope there isnt a lot, and im probably going
to nrb and maybe kristens house? ahaha
O ANDDD i couldnt watch family yesterday
so gotta watch that ANDDDD boys over flowers :]

Funnnn

so yesterday me, john and justin left for chans house in diamond barr
and on the way we saw a NICEEEEEE lambooo
and like we went to chans house, and then we left to go get stuff
for everyone else the next day, we bought a wholeeee mess of
stuff and we all wanted to bt like crazy, so justin bought apple cider
cuz it looked like wine, and chans mom made us zipo and ojinguh
and we used it as anjuuuu in the presence of closed-lamp light
and we btttt then went downstairs and chan fell asleep and the night
got sooooooooooo funnnn. we talked about like dreams and that made us
laugh a lot, but when we started talking about like poop and poop stories
we laughed SOOO hard ahaha. thenn we went to sleep cuz we were all tired

the next morning, we woke up at like 10 and got ready for brea mall,
cuz we had to get to the bus stop by like 12 59, and so we all took a shower
and got dressed and did our hair for a ridiculously long time, and left at 12 50
so I sprinted all the way to the bus stop and we all got in and left for brea mall
we went to the apple store and took a bunch of hilarious pics on their laptopss
thenn we went to H&M and got all excited like changing in to stuff we like and
modeling in the middle of the store, anddddd justin matching FREAKING
well with this one leather jacket thing. thenn everyone else came and we kinda
like split up and looked around, and i met up with my brea frends and we
hung out for a little, then at 4 30 the bus was here agen, so agennnn we had to
sprint to it and barely made it (?) ahahah and then at chans housee we ate
KYOOOCHONNN CHICKENNN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHOOO so goood!!!! and a bunch of other good stuff, then we like went to
the poisonous snake place,

O YEA i forgot, so the night before, we went to this place that has a sign that says
"Beware of Poisonous Snakes" and theres a pic of a viper or something, but
it was a REALLLYYY preettyy view of the city lights and stuff and thats where
our bt started, and it intesified at chans house ahahaha

but anyway we went there agen, and then we were at this like different ish place
but the couples went to the poisonous snake place and probably made out i bet
and thennn we went home, and john casie and jason thot that hannah and justin
were still going, so they waited, but really, they were the first ones inside ahaha
and thenn we played games the rest of the nighttt
prettyyyy funnnn~ o yea and jin cut his hair, he looks SOOOO nicee
like i couldnt stop staring at him, and we gave him a makeover type thingy
like we dressed him to match his new look, and it looks NICEEEEEEEE ahaha

Decided!!

so ever since I started driving, Ive been wanting
a car more, cuz I realized that if I get a motorcycle
then theres a lot of stuff that I wont be able to do
like give people rides, and like do alot of other stufff
sooo Ive decided its better if I get a motorcycle when
Im older anyway, just cuz its pretty dangerous ahaha
annndddd so Im hoping my parents will buy or at least
pitch in money for me to get a car. Im hoping for like
8000-10000 so its enough for a used RSX :D:D:D
so to all of those who wanted a ride when I got a
motorcycle, sorry but when i get one, ill call you!! :]]]
ahhh mannn and Im still deciding if I should do swim or not
cuz Im already FREAKING busy cuz of like FBLA, SCC,
and the Police thingy, but I think im gonna quit that soon.
anywayyyyy idk but I kinda want a job too, so yea.....
annnnddddd last year swim practice was 3 days a week
but this year its everyday, and last year, after one practice
I came home, ate twice as much as I usually do, and went to sleep
but this year is sophomore year and the workload is wayyy more
so right now my mom is like trying to dissuade me from doing swim.
I wanna cuz its super fun and all, but :[[[
and btw, I REALLLYYYYYY need a job so any families with like
a new business or something? maybe I can get a job there? ahaha

Wow...

So this weekend I pretty much had like 2 birthday parties
so yesterday, I invited about 12 friends to go to nrb
and to just come over and chill at my house
idk, but I think it was pretty okay for a party that I planned
in like two days. but I wish more people couldve comee ahaha
we jsut played games and watched movies and ate ahaha
and today at church, my mom brought some cake without me knowing
and then, all my youth group people caked me like crazyyyy
so Im gonna breakout tomorrrow :[[[