Anxious

ahhh please God, let things work out...
Im in pain... show me the way...

Omg

ahhh august.... schools starting soon, barely did hw
shoot... i have soo much homework, like not just school
but dr shin gives out SOOOO much so yea stress :[
alot of stuff i gotta go to too, barely have time for myself
or the computer... the closest people to me these days
are the ones i see the most, like at hagwon, and the people
im always texting... i wishh summer was longer :[[[
anyway i came back from retreat this week, it was really
really blessing and fun :] it was my first retreat that i was
on the praise team, so, it was really different being the one
making the music, instead of one of the ppl jumping around..
still, learned alot, experienced alot, had alot of fun! :D
o yea and i had jcc sleepover too, and like, we played monopoly
i LITERALLY had a monopoly, like omg, idk HOW i was doing
so good, like one person lands on my property, $2000 dollars
right there you know? :D i had so much money, i was helping
other poorer ppl play, and even AFTER that, i had alot left :D
shooott everyone was like goojunpyo to me, esther turning on
'paradise' right behind my head, freakingg rushhh mannn :]
ahhh so many things going on, both inside and out, gotta get
myself organized!

Breaking the Cycle

Officially gonna try to stop it here
before it happens agen

More Detailed Account

so ill start with wat happened after school on
the last day of school :]] mmmm
so i went to the beach, thats pretty much it
andddd i signed a lot of ppls yearbookss
and at the beach, like something happened
and we all had to leave like really quickly
and i lost my FREAKINGGG favorite slippers
so i was kindaaaaa pissed cuz i had to walk
to davids car, which was parked like 2 blocks away...

the next day which would be wednesday...
i think alll i did that day was see john off at the airport
mannn im so jealous i havent been to korea in like
3-4 years and he gets to go EVERY year D:
hope hes having funnnnn ahaha

thursdayy i went to the beach with my church
and it was super funnn cuz there were a lot
of games we played and a lot of funny punishments
like catching a plate with your forehead and stuff
and all the boy vs girls games, the guys won :D whoo
anywayyy almost everyone brought a boogieboard
so we all went into the water with one.... i bet it looked
like a cluster of bunched up koreans floating on the water
LOOOL yeaaa so it was super funnnn, like i have never
cried (teared up) while laughing until that day ahaha
andddd i took a bunch of pictures especially like jumping
pictures :D o yeaa i forgot, i took a lot of pictures on the
last day of school too!! ahaha anywayy yeaa the pics
arent up yet :[ andddddd on the ride abck to church,
we had to fit 21 ppl in this van that is supposed to seat 16
so like the ddriver and passenger seats alone was 4 ppl...
i thot i was gonna die from like suffocation LOOL
idkk i forgot a lot of stuff sorryy :] just know that it was fun

fridayy morning, i drove justin and john to jjimjilbang in hacienda
heights, cuz we were trying to get the early bird special, but it
only works from mon-thurs -__- so we had to pay 25 bucks
anddd on the way getting there, i kept doubting myself
so i u-turned like 10 times ahahaha buttt we had a good timee
messed around like crazyyy and went into the hottest room,
which i thot was freaking relaxing, but john was about to pass out
or something so we kept having to leavee ahaha i almost reached
nirvana or something in there :D LOOL after staying there, relaxing,
sleeping, and washing up for like 5-6 hours, we leftt, but we hadnt
eaten anything for breakfast cuz getting in was 25, sooo back in
lapalma/cypress, john bought us all jjajangmyun which was delicious,
thenn i went home and napped some more :D
but omgggg driving down this mountain thingy with all the windows down
and music bumping, wooooowwww i felt SOO good likee lighter than
a featherrr ughhhhh i wanna go backk :]]]]]

nowww.... summers starting to get boringgg D:
i gotta find something to do and keep myself busy
in other words... a JOB

i love summer...

i came home past 11
like the past 4 days
i love summer...
yesterday was church beach thing
it was freakingggg funnnn
today was jjimjilbangg
omgoodness going with frends
is SOOOOO much more fun
than with family LOOOOL
gahh i took a pic of myself
with 양머리, but i think
i accidentally erased it mannn
anywayyy, gotta go back one more
time before summers out.
ill post a more detailed one laterr
and sorryy i cant be online as much
and my phones been away from me
a long time, i promise ill talk more :D
anywayyy this blog is cut short
cuz i have more things to do todayy :]
driving+summer=freedom and 1 happy dan :D

busybusybusyy

so today, i was freaking busy
like i had church from 930-1
and at 1, i had to go to hannahs
house to film our project that we
never got to LOL and umm it was
pretttyy funnn cuz my character
was like this messed up, cranky, mean
person who like kicked the ball further away
when these kids (hannah&josh) ahaha
so weird cuz the first time, i actually chased after it xD
anywayyyy yeaaa we filmedd, edited a little
and then me and hannah had to go to scc bonding
so we went to islands in my truckkkkkkk
whooooo had it the whole day :DDDDD
but yeaaa we ate alot, and was served by
a superrrrrrrr nice waitress, so we gave her a lot of tip:]
thennn we went to christines house, and i took the guys
since its only me justin and sammy, and we wereee
bummpinnn the musicc mannnn :D ahaha
and at christines house, watched the lakers PWN
the magics, then watched a scary movie, like
the Uninvited or something? and a really funny movie
called like Fired Up ahaha sooo i got home like 10 min ago D:
so tireddd i mighttt sleep soon, but i wanna watch family
oor 1 bak 2 il :D

Funnnn

So today was free dress minimumm
and we had this stupid like assembly thing
like okay, you won the cif thing, you dont
have to go that far to honor them -__-
anywayyy the whole day was like movies
and yearbooks :D:D:D
and after school, we worked on our PSA a little
and then i went home to get the car to play
but o yea! my mom told me shed buy me chipotle
so we went, and she was going to lbtc, and i was like
"umma... chipotles at cerritos..." and shes like
theres one there! so i was like hmmm maybe they
just built one there recently.... so i went.
we get tehre, and she points to chik-fil-a and shes liike
"see there is one here!" sooo we went home, without
any food, but its okayy cuz i ate L&L at the place
across the mall aha soo joe and josh were alone at school
so i picked them up, and picked the rest of them up
at billy bs cuz they were eating aha soo my car was packed with:
justing josh joe john david michael tyler me
wat a sausage festt LOOL anywayyy we went, and after
me joe josh michael and tyler went to eat, we all split up
and me and josh met up with the other guys at hollister
and went into the dressing rooms, which were pretty funny,
like the first thing i see is justin topless LOL thennn
we went to justin's house, and played around on his
freakingggggggg awesome mac :OOOO i want one now
after taking pics, me josh joe and david started recording
this one song that idk the title of ahaha
after a while they had to go to the choir banquet, so i
just went home, then took a nap until church time aha
anywayy wow, i REALLY love drivingggg noww i can
go so many places like right after school that i could never
go without walking long distances. new experiences yes? :]

First Day of Choir Show

So todayy was super tiringggg
i was planning on sleeping an hour
until 1 am and finish my ppt, but
completeeeeee fail, i woke up at 5 -_-
anywayy today i had the choir show,
and idk why, but it doesnt feel like its
the show, probably cuz we suck ahaha
anywayyy i screwed up BADDD in
dancing on the cieling, like i was supposed
to do this one dance step, but i did the one
that was after the one i was supposed to do(?)
idkkk the only thing is, im front and center
and i screwed upp badd ahaha
o yeaaa and since we dont go up for a long time
me tyler michael and jesse decided to go
grab some food at a mexican restaraunt across
the street by sneaking outt
omggg it felt like last year at the park agenn
omggg sooooo scary ahaha
all in all, it was pretty okay of a day, soo tiring tho-_-

Shit

idk why, but i felt like posting
im freaking tired from rehearsal today
and i still havent started my health
powerpoint....
i hopee i sleep at least 6 hours -__-

Today

I was super bored, went to nrb with some ppl
it was funnnn even tho i was the only guy aha
idkk ive gone with john so much, it was weird
in the beginning singing the songs we usually
sing by myself or with a girl, but by the end
i was fineeeee :D aha anywayyy yea we went
to nrb and sang for like 2 hours, when it was
originally 1 hour aha thenn it ended up i paid
like 50 cents less than i was supposed to and
i felt bad so i bought them starbucks on my
crazyy starbucks cards :]]]] i love driving
whenever im bored now, i can always find
somewayy to entertain myself, especially
when there is no one there to entertain me

idk these days ive been feeling lonelier and
lonelier, my last relationship was like over 2
years ago, and in freshman year i didnt think
TOO much of being single, but i think after a
while, it starts coming back to you...
springs supposed to be the season of love
where both the flowers and the relationships
blossom
but why hasnt mine bloomed yet?

O Yeaa Forgot

Firsts
soooo it was my first time:
going to jennys house
actually playing with ayden
talking with her mother, not just insa
seeing her sister in real life
going into jennys room
and watching something with jenny,
even tho i did not know wat it was
and we werent really watching LOOL
manyy more to comee? ahaha

OOOOH you makee me liveee

ahaha my dads listening to that song
upstairs right now. its soo good ahaha
anywayy today like the most fun i had
was PROBABLYY at jennys house
even tho it was like half an hour D:
i picked john up to eat, but i felt like
going to jennys house for some reason
so we went and wooow i like ittt :D aha
idk i was just gonna say hi and go, but her
mom told us to come in, so i did, and idk why
i was pretty scared/nervous, aha so for like the
first couple minutes me and john just stood at
the doorway buttt we ended up having funn
played with jennys brotherr who is FREAKINGG
cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D:D:D and talked with her
mom while jenny went upstairs to clean her room
even thoo, personnallyy, i think it wouldnt have been
that messy compared to like my room ahaha
yeaa her mom is very nice and i thot itd be awkward
to talk to her since jenny was gone, but nott at all aha
yeaa then we went to her room, which is like freakinggg
niceee i want ittt give it to mee T_T aha picture wall
and everythinggg ahaha cool roooomm
yeaa then we talked a little about kimbab i guess
and ate fruits :D then i had to go, which i kinda regret
cuz when we got there like only 2 of the 6 other ppl
that were supposed to come came :[[

My 3 Day Weekend

was more funn than i expecteddd!
i thot id just be in front of the computer
doing nothing and watching stuff
but i loveeee drivinggg, like half the time
i was driving :D

Saturday:
I went to hagwon really early in the morning
and it was kindaa boringg, but after i went to
my singing teachers house and sang with this
one girl thats reallyyyyy goood and idk the harmony
was prettttttttyyyy crazyy, kinda excited
we're doign lessons together now cuz the teacher
likes how we do singing with each other or something idkk
anyyywayyy that got me kidna excitedd and thenn i came home
and did some homeworkk -____- and hmm oo yeaa!
i went to jjimjilbangg agen, and it was so-so i just took
a reallyyy comfortable nap in one of the rooms :D ahaha
andd thenn this like weird hwang ssi meeting thing with
alll these jangsoo(my family) hwang ssis and i met my like
really really really really really distant cousin there, and we talked
it was kinda cool, we have a lot of similar interests

Sunday:
so sunday, just went to church, and i was gonnaa
go to nrb, but things didnt work out, and my parents
went to a jipdeullee for the whole night, so i had the car to
myself for like 6-7 hours you knowwww? so i was super excited
anywayy the back story that will play a part
in the plot is that they left while i was napping
and they kneww i was gonna take the car out,
and one car is a minivan, and the other is like
a beat up truck, and they took the minivan
and they took the keys for the truckk, but they left
a spare key so i was all happy, but the key didnt have
the locking thingg!!! so i was like omg... and i tried
locking it with the key that they left, but the key was too like
weird idk and it wouldnt, so i left home in a truck
that had veryyy bad brakes, and no way of locking
to johns house, and we went around and talked about alot of stuff
and like we went to starbucks with hannah, but i didnt wanna
risk getting the car jacked, so we went to a park and talked
in the trunk of the truck, and like we went to boba loca
and i parked like really close so i could seeeeee
oo yeaaa! and the part that ALMOST made me cry
was i park, and i turn it off, but the key wouldnt come out
so i try starting the car agen, but it wouldnt start
so im like OMGGG and i bang my head on the steering wheel
and then i see a glwoing thing underdeath a D
it was still on drive -_____- which is whyy i dislikeee
SUPERRR old cars anywayyy yeaa stay out till like 8-9ish
parents came home at 10, went to johns house to sleepover
composed songs talked, watched ING with imsoojung
omgggggg sooooo cuteee wowowow anywayyy yeaa its super sad
andd then slept :D

Monday:
so i guess a lot happened in the morning
like johns homestay noona like attacked him
and stuff, but i dotn remember anyythinggggg aha
and thenn i woke up around 12 got ready, caleb came
laterr and we just watched stuff, and i went home
and came back with the car( the minivan) and me
and caleb went to christie's house cuz his speciiallll
person (:]) was there, and i teased them :]]
then i dropped him off around six, came home,
ateee and learned romanza which i loveee :D ahaha
andd im writing this cuz someone told me to write about
my weekedn too! butt sorry if it gets super general
or boring ish, im like dying from drowsiness right now :[[
mmkayyy gniteee!!!

When Youre Dreaming With a Broken Heart

The giving up is the hardest part...

At Lasttttttt

a prettyyyy fun weekend dayyy
others were kindaa fun cuz i just went out for a little
but today, from 4-6 me john gabe david and rose went to nrb and i was super excited cuz i havent gone since forever and i drove :D sangg like crazyy lost my voice, went to icekeki after and ate some green tea bingsoo and talkedd and i lost the first time at eating dduk :[[. thenn i dropped rose and gabe off, me and john went driving around to see what we could do, and after stopping by casie and michelles house we finally went to michaels house and he came out and we went out to eat phoo and ate... then we were bored agenn and thot we were going to stephanies house to play wii and even bought starbucks for her, buttttttt when we got there, she had to leave and she took the drink and left us.... :[[[[[ sooo again we had nothing to doo and we just decided to go to hannahs since, we ALWAYS intrude hannah... and justin... LOOL anyway we went and played with her freakkkkinnngggggggg cute cousinss Ellie is so nice and smart :]]]]]]
andd thenn we left, but the thing is, like we were going, and while im dropping john off, a car like blinked its lights at us, and me and michael were like "wtf is taht guy doing..." and i noticed while im turning, "hey why is it so dark?" and the front lights werent working, and if i cop saw, he wouldve pulled me over and i wouldve been SCREWEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDD up the butt.... so we went to michael house with HI BEAM on cuz we figured itd be less easy to catch than lights off completely when it is STILL illegal to do that... so we were sweating liek crazy the whole wayyyy and the ride back home was worse cuz i kept imagining police sirens and got myself superrr scaredd. annndd the weird thiing is, when i get home and tell my mom about it, she tries, and it works! i think it might be haunted O.o LOL jp. anywayyy just happy i got home without a ticket ahaha andddd now its time to do hw -____-

p.s. uhh the title came from joshs cover of at last, and it is SOOO good. like wooow incredible... john keptttttt playing it and now its stuck in my head ahaha

Borrringgggg Weekendddd

suchhh a boring weekendd

i barely did anything

the highlight of it would be

eating 순두부 and just driving

having a license gives me so much freedddooommm:D

i literally just drove to like buena park cuz i was bored

hahaha nnow its time to get a car

if anyone knows any job openings, tell me!!!!

i am in DIRE need of a job and money :]

uhhh o yea and i pwned my 순두부 vvv :]

you can see the bottom of the bowl :]]]]

LICENSED!!!

so i took my license test today
effing waited for an hour in line
shook like no other, but ended up doing
pretty okay :D
WHOOOOOOO im realizing
how much freedom a license gives me :D

Confused Yet Again

ughhhhh
I hope it's true...

You Irrational Being

why do you FORCE me to hurt you?

slow dancing in a burning room

ive been having the best of days recently
but today for some reason, i started getting confused
idk how to explain this feeling, but i feel like
its hard to breathe... im so confused...
and out of nowhere i had this urge
to listen to john mayer orenmanhae.
at least theres someone that can make
this day sooo much better ahaha
hmmm maybe todays just a not-so-great day.
and now i long for yesterdayy

hack hack hack !

^ that reminds me of strong baby-seungri. crack crack crack ! wow... LOL
anywayyy;
hi, i came to hack dan's blog; hahaha
idk how to start.. o_O ill start like how everyone else starts,
how we met !
i met him in winter i think, when i was in 7th grade at eaton
aaaaaand we werent close from the beginning
i just thought he was this weird 8th grader with long hair singing 풍선 :P
HAHAHAHAHAHAA good old times.. the essay writing place;; hahahahaa
anywayyyy, honestly.. i thought i would never see him in my life again
until i realized he was going to oxford too ! i was like
wow.. oh no not the perverted guy; HAHAHA jk (:
but honestly, going to eaton was pretty fun
listening to dan and jin cho talk was pretty amusing, idk how
but all i know is that it wasnt boring.. hahahaha
and im sorry for all the things that happened ^^ LOL
oxford!
well i dont think we were this close the first time at oxford
it just gradually~~~ happened? since we saw each other more often and stuff
in 8th grade he was in my pe period so we said hi and stuff
wow that waterday or sumthing.. aishhhh put me like in front of the sprinklers -___-
aaaaaand thanks to dan, i made a lot more friends ! like caleb, john, hannah, gloria(:
i think..
anywayyyyyy
im glad he goes to oxford and stuff cuz i have someone to vent to
i bet its all 부담스러워cuz i tend to get all 흥분해 and sumtimes raise my voice and stuff
but thanks for listening.. lmao and with my backing away-ness
i think thats why dan knows a lot about me
cuz i vent and rant and talk to him often, he knows my problems and concerns
he knows also like everyone in my family too
인사s to my mother, she thinks youre a nice person. hahahaha
and she thinks ur very tall. lmao
loves my brother. hahahahahaha more than me tsk tsk
you know what i just realized? i knew him for like almost 3 years o_O thats a long time
7th grade-now. woahhhh !
and we never even hung out. and we only have ONE picture together; hahahaha
not much of those friendship memories like going sumwhere watch movie taking pictures and stuff
but its okayy!
i can say that i might have more memories w/him than some of my best friends
just by talking and texting(: its really fun and time flies
always there for me, especially on that day when i was all T^T and D: thank youu !=)
im such a pain in the ass. LOL but thanks for bearing and 참아ing hahahahahahahahahahah [x
and i vent too much -_- maybe i should stop venting to people and keep it to myself
anywayyyy, this post is all over the place and not organized; i suck at this..
OH YEAH, thanks for the bigbang cd ! you gave me during the summer
and thanks for that sweater thing for christmass ! (: yay i love stripes, and you know that
hahahahahaah. wow i wrote more than you; im so nice
and really, this blog is so all over the place and messy and disorganized =/ ehhhh
anywayyyy
i guess im glad that i went to eaton and met you
cuz i think if i didnt go there and we both just went to oxford, i would not have known youu

Todays Swim Meet and afterrrr

ughhh so i swam varsity today
and i got freaking 100 fly
and 100 back. like ARE YOU SERIOUS
wowowowow and especialllyyy when
hannah and gloria were there. ughh
sooooo embarassing :[[[[[[[[[[[[
i thot i was gonna die on the last 25 back
from the fly :[ and hannah kept taking pics D:
but wateverrr i hope i dont get it agenn :]]

after the meet we went to yogurt time,
and they KEPT talking about wat type
of guy they liked, and somehow i got pulled
into the conversation... weirdd... ahahaha
anyywayyy it was cool hearing about the
opposite sex's opinions on stuff aha hmmm
thats about it for my day
tomorrows choir festival...i HOPE we come back
like
in the last 5 minutes of 6th plzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i hateeeeeeeeeeeeee chinese! :]

gabe bergado

is the coolest person ive ever met :D

VV

idk why it didnt post anything...
but anyway i like it
and not being cocky or nothing
but it kinad reminds me of
a krn celebrity's hair ahah

new haircut!!

____ __ ____

speechless outside...
inside screaming

...

so it was choir show,
i honestly think mp was like
the best outta the classes,
but thats just my opinion.
the stuff that happened after the
choir show was SUPERRRR fun
and hilarious, but you gotta be there
to know how fun it was. i cant believe
i might not be able to take choir next year...
anyway..... lifes still been like a roller coaster
ive had the best of times where i forget all about
wats been bothering me, but after the fun disappears...
i sometimes really wanna just break down or something
feels like my chest is ripping, and i hate it......

these days, ive been super indecisive, like
more than normal. idk wat to do
ughhh been feeling like crap these days
first i thot it was cuz of those stupid braces
thingys, then i thot it was cuz of choir week
but i dont have any other reason to be this way.
theres not many ppl i can REALLY vent out like
alll my feelings about currently...
even if i do, im probably just gonna embarass myself

Tiringggg

So this week is choir hell week
and then choir show on fri-sat
then sadies like meeting/planning/setup
this sunday, then setting up sadies
the morning of sadies, then sadiess
woooooww sooo busyy
that PLUS swim, omg stress.
swims been pretty good to me this season
im not tired after practice that much
and im wayyyy faster than last year :]]
ahaha i guess today was a pretty good day
cuz i took those STUPID braces thingys off
and he says, hes gonna get them off in like
a month YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
finally freed from the 3 years of like torture
these stupid things have put me through.
so anywayy yea, first swim meet, i hopeee
i dont choke like last year ahaha
anyway since everyone did this, ill do it to
that colorgenics thingy

Name: Dan HwangDate: 3/3/2009Colorgenics Number: 17034265
At this time you are feeling 'uptight' and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been 'hard done by' and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn't too different.
You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.
At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.
For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.
You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

idk if its completellyy accurate, but its pretty close aha

A Roller Coaster

Ive heard that phrase, "life is like a rollercoaster" alot,
but i always thot, there was a period of good, then
it goes all bad, but it lasted like a couple weeks at least...
but in these past few days, its been THE WORST
roller coaster ever....
sure there were alot of good things, sadies for one,
but after that wow, ive never felt this much like
anger and happy mixed at one time.
i would be all angry, then i would talk to my frends
and just being with them would cheer me up,
but after they leave, im just angry again, and the
braces thing just makes it worse. the only time ive
punch walls, and messed up a bunch of stuff, imagined
me killing somebody, and beign so angry i started tearing up
wass a looooooonnggg time ago, but these days, wow,
it hasnt been that bad, but ive had so much anger for some reason
hannah posted a blog saying that its the little things that
can really make a difference, and that is so true,
all the little things ppl have been doing to me, like maybe even as a joke
got me so pissed. if i was ever like not responding or something
at a ppoint, im sorry ahaha
but i think i just need more time to get rid of my anger and most of my emotions for now....

Stilllllllllll Pretty Fun :D

So today, I wanted to go to Kristens house
so I called john, and he was practicing at rogers house
for the talent show, so i was like ok
text me when your done, and i was just doing
math and studying and he told me to come at 3
so i started walking, then it rained like crazy and
i saw a rainbow ahahaha Roger gave us a ride
and i called kristen, but i didnt know that she was
leaving at 4, sooo we just went to nrb, and called
up andrew, and we sang for like a good hour :D
thennnn we didnt wanna go home, so we tried
deciding wat do to, so andrew just went aroundd
and i sed turns to take, and john was supposed to
say stop, but he never did, so we went to mcdonalds
but their 2 big macs for 3.50 deal wasnt going on
anymore so we went to burgerking, which was in
the Zion Market mall thing at ate like 2 double
cheeseburgers each for a dollar. MEANINGGG
we drove around for an hour just to come back
to the place we started ahahaha. We got dropped
off and i just watched boys over flowers and family
the rest of the day :D:D yayyy i love even days
exept for math >:[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[[

o yeaaaa me and john sang 애인있어요 by DnT like
3? 4? times at nrbbb WHOOOOOO i love that song
:D

Woahhh Still Fun!

So yesterday after church,
I found out i was goign snowboarding
sooo we bought some stuff and left
with justin ryoos family, even tho
justin didnt goo. wow, i got ALOT
better than the last time i went :]]
only fell down like 5 times and that
was cuz some stupid ppl like fell down
in front of me, and like cut me and stuff
anywayy, my body is still REALLYYY
tired ahaha mannn gotta start hww T_T
i hope there isnt a lot, and im probably going
to nrb and maybe kristens house? ahaha
O ANDDD i couldnt watch family yesterday
so gotta watch that ANDDDD boys over flowers :]

Funnnn

so yesterday me, john and justin left for chans house in diamond barr
and on the way we saw a NICEEEEEE lambooo
and like we went to chans house, and then we left to go get stuff
for everyone else the next day, we bought a wholeeee mess of
stuff and we all wanted to bt like crazy, so justin bought apple cider
cuz it looked like wine, and chans mom made us zipo and ojinguh
and we used it as anjuuuu in the presence of closed-lamp light
and we btttt then went downstairs and chan fell asleep and the night
got sooooooooooo funnnn. we talked about like dreams and that made us
laugh a lot, but when we started talking about like poop and poop stories
we laughed SOOO hard ahaha. thenn we went to sleep cuz we were all tired

the next morning, we woke up at like 10 and got ready for brea mall,
cuz we had to get to the bus stop by like 12 59, and so we all took a shower
and got dressed and did our hair for a ridiculously long time, and left at 12 50
so I sprinted all the way to the bus stop and we all got in and left for brea mall
we went to the apple store and took a bunch of hilarious pics on their laptopss
thenn we went to H&M and got all excited like changing in to stuff we like and
modeling in the middle of the store, anddddd justin matching FREAKING
well with this one leather jacket thing. thenn everyone else came and we kinda
like split up and looked around, and i met up with my brea frends and we
hung out for a little, then at 4 30 the bus was here agen, so agennnn we had to
sprint to it and barely made it (?) ahahah and then at chans housee we ate
KYOOOCHONNN CHICKENNN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
WHOOO so goood!!!! and a bunch of other good stuff, then we like went to
the poisonous snake place,

O YEA i forgot, so the night before, we went to this place that has a sign that says
"Beware of Poisonous Snakes" and theres a pic of a viper or something, but
it was a REALLLYYY preettyy view of the city lights and stuff and thats where
our bt started, and it intesified at chans house ahahaha

but anyway we went there agen, and then we were at this like different ish place
but the couples went to the poisonous snake place and probably made out i bet
and thennn we went home, and john casie and jason thot that hannah and justin
were still going, so they waited, but really, they were the first ones inside ahaha
and thenn we played games the rest of the nighttt
prettyyyy funnnn~ o yea and jin cut his hair, he looks SOOOO nicee
like i couldnt stop staring at him, and we gave him a makeover type thingy
like we dressed him to match his new look, and it looks NICEEEEEEEE ahaha

Decided!!

so ever since I started driving, Ive been wanting
a car more, cuz I realized that if I get a motorcycle
then theres a lot of stuff that I wont be able to do
like give people rides, and like do alot of other stufff
sooo Ive decided its better if I get a motorcycle when
Im older anyway, just cuz its pretty dangerous ahaha
annndddd so Im hoping my parents will buy or at least
pitch in money for me to get a car. Im hoping for like
8000-10000 so its enough for a used RSX :D:D:D
so to all of those who wanted a ride when I got a
motorcycle, sorry but when i get one, ill call you!! :]]]
ahhh mannn and Im still deciding if I should do swim or not
cuz Im already FREAKING busy cuz of like FBLA, SCC,
and the Police thingy, but I think im gonna quit that soon.
anywayyyyy idk but I kinda want a job too, so yea.....
annnnddddd last year swim practice was 3 days a week
but this year its everyday, and last year, after one practice
I came home, ate twice as much as I usually do, and went to sleep
but this year is sophomore year and the workload is wayyy more
so right now my mom is like trying to dissuade me from doing swim.
I wanna cuz its super fun and all, but :[[[
and btw, I REALLLYYYYYY need a job so any families with like
a new business or something? maybe I can get a job there? ahaha

Wow...

So this weekend I pretty much had like 2 birthday parties
so yesterday, I invited about 12 friends to go to nrb
and to just come over and chill at my house
idk, but I think it was pretty okay for a party that I planned
in like two days. but I wish more people couldve comee ahaha
we jsut played games and watched movies and ate ahaha
and today at church, my mom brought some cake without me knowing
and then, all my youth group people caked me like crazyyyy
so Im gonna breakout tomorrrow :[[[

YESSSS!!!

finally.....
Finals are DONE!!!
wow near the end of the math final
idk if it was cuz i was so happy
or i was just REALLY tired, but i started
to tear up. ughhhh sooo glad its overrr
so today after school, i went to johns house
talked a little, then roger gave us a ride to subway
it was okayyy i guess, we bullied edward the WHOLLE
time ahahahaha and thennnn roger let me drive
and we met up with like some freshman at dq and talked
then i drove agen to school and talked with michelle during
the tennis tryouts till like five, then me john chan ed and roger
went to carls jr, and ate, then boba loca, and ate,
then i got dropped off at Jisu's house where i
PWNEEEDDDD like a mother :D:D:D then came home
:D today was pretty funnnn. yayyyy for this weekend! ahaha

My Birthday

So today 1/25 was my birthday
wow I just got to say
I LOVE MY FRIENDS! they seriously
made it one of the best birthdays ever
like even if I didnt do anything ahahaha
so thanks guys :D:D
today was a pretty good day I guesss
Went to church, didnt do much there tho
ahaha and came home and watched shows
But as soon as I sign into facebook, the little
red thingy says 23. wooow I was pretty happy
anyway I wasnt on planning on having a sweet sixteen
cuz Hannah was like, "Dan! Guys dont have Sweet Sixteens!"
but I think Im gonna have to, even if it might just be
calling abunch of friends to hang out at my house
or something idk, Ill have to think about it ahaha

wtf....

wow so yesterday was winter formal
and I couldnt go cuz of my freaking mom
ok
so heres wat happened, I ask her like a longgggg
time ago, and she sed no, so then, I didnt really wanna go
so I was like watever, but later on, seeing like EVERYONE
in my class is going, I started watning to go agenn and I asked agen
and she sed no, and I was like ok, I guess Im not going,
so I let david borrow my tux, and on Tuesday, I REALLLYYY wanted
to go, and I asked, and shes like, I guess you cant now cuz you
let him borrow your tux, so I was like wtf... and yesterday
she was saying like "how is it my fault"
CUZ YOU DIDNT LET ME GO IN THE FIRST PLACE
IF YOU LET ME GO THEN I WOULDNT HAVE LET HIM BORROW IT
AND I COULDVE GONE
wow I was soooooooooooooooooooooo pissed like the first half of the day
cuz I was at Johns house, and I saw them getting all ready

But I guess it got better later, cuz I played tennis with Caleb and Josh,
even tho I suck nuts at it, and I guess it was pretty fun, especially
cuz I was dancing Rainism :]] and after I went to Josh's house and
talked till like 12 pm..... GAHDDD we wanted to go so baddd
but watevers, it was pretty fun talking to him :]]

Not a Drama or Movie

but I wish it wassss gahhhhhh
I think we should make like
an F4 at Oxford.
Recently Ive been watching
꽃보다 남자, and its sooooo funnn
anyway, schools tiring as always,
and I have like 3 tests this week...
so AP Euro, I dont really have to study for
but Chem and Math OMG, Im gonna die
I haveeeeeeee to get good gradessss
my future is on the line!!!!

anyway, I shouldnt be doing this, but
I wanna watch so many like shows
-꽃보다 남자
-패밀리가 떴다
-우리결혼했어요
-1박2일
-개그 콘서트
-마왕(this old drama that looks freaking good)
-그들이사는세상
and so many movies and keroro...
gahhddd I should be study ahahaha
anywayy today was tiring as alwaysssss
ennglish is starting to REALLY annoy me
Im screwed for math.....
ahahaha anywayyy I am currently listening to
GEE by SNSD <3333333333333333
태연<333333 ahahahaha
Om posting cuz I was boreddd and Jenny was posting one too!
ahahha sooo whose up to make like an F4 for oxford?? :D:D:D

Pretty Funny

So today I went to Heffys church with
John David Michael Jin Jesse and Heffy
to practice for the talent show thingy~
wow after not practicing bass for like 2 months
I suckkkkkkkkkkk so bad now. like Johns better
than me currently ahahaha
and we made a remix of this song, its PRETTY cool
my solo :]]]]

ahaha and wow today, I laughed REALLY hard cuz
when it was just me and John at his house at like 1,
I was like, "John! watch the SNSD MV! Taeyeons so cute!"
and stuff like that, so we were watching it, and when
my wife came out, I was like WHOOO!!! TAEYEON!
and I went all crazy and singing the lines like "nononononoooo!"
and near the end, theres this part where it goess
"gee gee gee gee geee!" and this one girl jumps up
so I jumped too out of my excitedness, and bumped my head
on Johns chandlier, which is all these like plastic diamond
looking things, which also ALL came fallign down on my head
and the floor. mannnn I was so jjokpallyuhed, and all I just started
picking the things up with my hand on my head, and all I heard was
John all like, "Are you okay?" and after we put the things back
me and John were ROLFing for liek 30 min STRAIGHT LOOOL
soooo funnyyyyyyyyyy
andd after the talent show thing, at Johns house, I laughed like
crazy cuz of Jin, cuz he was laughign at me, which made me laugh ahaha
anyway today was pretty funnn, gotta get better tho :[[[
and tomorrow, a CRAPLOAD of hw :[[ maybe I should start right now

Routine

So I noticed whenever school starts, like a whole
daily routine starts that repeats like everyday
I wake up at like 6ish maybe 630, go to school,
come home, eat, nap for like 2 hours, do hw,
maybe study, and then go on computer or piano,
and maybe near 8 I go to Johns house

well lifes been pretty boring, maybe starting to get fun?
and schools FREAKING tiring, like I wanna dieeee
mann wish I was older :[[

Mannn

Theres not much to write about nowadays
school is making life too routine. Always doing
the same things over and over everyday
Anyway, today was pretty okay I guess
school was tiring, as always -_-
went to Johns house and nolahed and studied
and sang to songs :]]] D&Y Ent. is coming along~
(current name, its gonna change. any suggestions? :])
And whenever I think about school, wowowow
I have to brin gup my math grade: currently D
my chem grade: B-, my eng grade: B
mannnnn and semesters ending soon!

Hmmm nothing much to write about....
Things currently on my mind:
-Thinking about writing a song soon?
-Study like a mother for the upcoming tests
-Practice singing
-I should go to the gym more often
-I really like Farinelli, maybe try it? ahaha
-The band thingy

Sorry guys, Ill try posting new, better stuff ahaha

Random

Ok so I just woke up from a 3 hour nap
and the whoolllleee nap, I had this superrrrrr
weird dream.

So it starts out as me, Joe, and Justin at a party
and we see Kayne West there, and he starts rapping
and hes like making fun of 50 cent, and then,
you look into the audience, and 50 cent is like
RIGHT there like looking all pissed, so he goes up
onto the stage and he beats Kayne West like nothing
and someone drives his BIGG SUV on, and he flips
Kayne off and Kayne does the same to him, but for some reason
the 3 of us get into 50's car, and he gives us a ride to this like
complex ish thingy, where there are 3 garage doors,
but if you go in, its not a house, but like an apartment complex.
ok, so somehow I knew my house was in the second garage door
and they wanted me to stay with Joe and Justin in this other house
till they came. I cant remember what happened, but something about
me leaving and coming back to see Joe and Justin being dragged by the lady
and I was like WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! and she was like
O they stole something from me. and so we were locked up
and I didnt do anything, so I was pissed, and I got the thingy
and threw it out the window, and we ALL ran away,
but the lady called some people and Joe was hiding in this
upstairs room for laundry, and Justin was hiding in some bathrooms,
and I had nowhere to hide but in front of someones house
(hey Ive seen this somewhere LOL)
anyway we ran around alot, and we finally got through the garage door
to see my parents coem back, and I was like HURRY UP! LETS GO HOME!
and so we were all happy, when the second garage door shut behind us
but as I sed, its like a complex inside, so while we were walking to
my house, Justin's like Hey... I just saw something move over there
and when me and Joe turned, we didnt see nothing, but
we saw that woman's face on a cloud, and that was freaking scary
so I woke up ahahaha mannn, what a weird dream ahaha

anyway, it was the first day of school today.
UGHH I was so tired the whole day, fell asleep in Chem
mannn and 0 period, is gonna kill me this year -_-
but like John, Im gonna start studying now alot,
not cuz I want to, well I do a little, cuz my moms telling me to
and I think I need to too so yea... ahahahah
Im gonna TRY doing less computer, but I doubt it
goal for soph year is 4.0!

Hopeful?

So today, was pretty boring also,
went to church, watched Korean shows
buttttt the thing that made my day
was I finally told my mom about me and Johns plan
and I didnt want to tell her at first, cuz shes kinda like
the type of parent tahts like, your plan for life is,
you go to college, you get a high paying job,
you get married, you have children, you give your parents
a good home for retirement, you live comfortably.
Which I can understand, cuz they really struggled and stuff,
but thats kinda why I always used to wish I was born into
a rich family, so I could get watever job I want, buttt, life
doesnt work out that way, so yeaaa ahahaha
anyway, I thot shed be like, "Are you crazy?" and stuff
but both of my parents were like,"O yea, if you become famous,
and start a company, and become CEO, like JYP and YG,
theyre all freaking rich, so go for it. And a bunch of other companies
started like that, between like friends, so its possible."
and when I heard that I was like :O WAT IS THIS?! ahahaha
But they want me to get outta college with at least some kinda degree,
but I was planning on doing that anyone, so it doesnt really matter.
Mannn Im so happy ahaha. I thot Id end up being one of those guys
that have a job they hate, and something they like doing, but
since the pay if good, they keep doing it, but there hope I might not be
:D:D:D

Boring

So today I literally did NOTHING
wow, winter breaks gonna be over by tomorrow
and life is gonna go back to routine:
wake up, school, hang out a little, come home, sleep,
do hw, free time, go to sleep, wake up.......
mannn I wish school was just there for socializing ahaha
todayy I layed around, watch some Korean shows,
watched some movies:
영화는 영화다 with 소지섭 and 강지환(홍길동 guy),
mannn it was PRETTYY funn and cool and good :]]
and I watched 놈.놈.놈 it was pretty good, didnt finish tho
gonna finish it later ahaha

and today, this ajummah calls my mom, and told her
to make me study like a nerd, cuz she gave up on her daughter
and she told her some bullcrap about like, getting into UC's
you have to have like over 4.3 GPA or something, and then,
she told my dad, and what my GPA is
(which is way lower, cuz I didnt show my progress report :P)
and my dad starts yelling at me like, "Why aren't you studying?!"
and my cousin made it into the University of Seoul this year
and he kept like comparing me to her, and how I HAVE to go to
Stanford or better to beat her, and I was getting pretty pissed.
I mean, when I found out I got accepted into Oxford,
I reallly didnt wanna go, like, for like a week, I sed no, and my mom
was all like "You know how many ppl prayed for you to get in,
and now your gonna deny it?! No! Youre going!"
sooo today, when my dad hears about the UC thing, he gets all pissed
like,"Its better to go to a crappy school and do better than going
to a hard school and doing bad, I guess" which has been my arguement
whenever the subject came up, and immediately, my mom goes on my
dads side and says "Yea, whyd you say you wanted to go at first then?"
Wow when I heard that, I was seriously about the flip over the dinner table
oo mann, yea I have a lot of problems with my like immediate family,
so my mom and my dad, my sister too I guess (but not really),
but my grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, alll love me and 이뻐해조 me
wayy more than my sis, so Im always happy when I go to Korea :]
anyway, family problems are for another post, like, for a big event,
cuz I feel another one coming pretty soon

Fun and Tiring

So today I had to wake up at like 6, superr early
cuz I went snowboarding!! YAYYY
It was only like my 2nd time going like SNOWBOARDING
in my life, but it was pretty fun, even tho I ate it a couples times
There was a SUPPERR lot of traffic both when we were going and
coming back, mann took like 2-3 hours
anyway, I went to Mountian High, and they have this point lift pass
where like you can go agen if you have enough points, and I had
130 pts left at the end of the day, which is like 13 times up pretty much,
so anyone up for going soon? ahahaha
So starting was really hard, cuz I never learned how, and Angela and Kristine
were trying to teach me the whole time, but for some reason,
it wasnt working, and near the end of the day, I found out that I am
SOOO weird, like usually you lean back and face foward, and you
get up from your back, but me, I couldnt get up like that,
so I had to throw the snowboard the other way around, and get up on my stomach
and I had wayyyy better control stopping and turning with my back facing down
woww, pretty weird, Angela and Kristine were laughing like crazy,
but by the end, I like beat them down the mountain my style, so heehee :D:D
o and btw if you guys ever have to ride the lifts alone, find some random person,
cuz the lift took a long time, and I was talking to this guy a lot ahahaha
anyway I post some more a little later, no pics tho sorry :[[ ahaha

Another Year Older

I have a feeling this blog is gonna be very long, cuz I did a lot today,
andd just the fact that its new years!
I am currently superr tired from walking around most of the day ahaha

So today started off with me going to visit Gina, an older person from church
at the hospital, because right now she is really sick and stuff :[[
the whole time I had a lump in my throat cuz I didnt want to start crying cuz
like, Ive known her my whole life and stuff. I finally decided, I dont wanna
be in the health field cuz, I can barely stand hearing about people dying,
so I dont think Ill be able to live with myself if I make a mistake and
accidentally take someones life. Today I really found out the meaning of
"Dont do something for the money, but do something you enjoy doing."
I mean I wanted to go into the health field cuz, honestly, the money
but after going there today, and seeing how much pain she was in,
and just the mood of the whole hospital just really brought down my spirits.
Like, I just imagined how many people could be dying in like, the next building
and the stench of death just lingered over the whole place. Very depressing.
The only business I want in a hospital is if someone I know is hurt, or if Im hurt.

On a brighter note, I went to Downtown Disney today withhhh....
John, Hannah, David, MYP, and Gloria!! Yayyyyy ahahaha
It was very fun but also very tiring, by the end, I was about to die
cuz I didnt have anything to drink and Hannah wouldnt buy me any
anddd I was kinda hungry, and I like Kettle Corn, and Hannah had a bunch,
and she was mad at David, but she didnt let me have any either, so I was like D:
Ahaha anddd Hannah spent like over an hour at Build-A-Bear, and everyone was like
wooow ahaha and me and John laughed like crazy cuz of the heart thingy AHAHAHA
Buttt we took many many pictures (especially Hannah) and ate at Rainforest Cafe~
It was really fun, and there were many funny moments, and memorable ones too? ahaha
anyway it was a really good way to spend New Year's Eve, I mean, no one better than
with some of your closest friends right? ahahaha all I can say is, it was fun :]]]
anndddd Downtown Disney was AMAZINGLY well decorated, and beautiful today,
and there are alot of cool street performers that are crazy good, and the stores are all
really fun and the workers are super chill, so we could like just take pictures and leave aha
I wouldnt mind going there again :]]

So on my last section, its gonna be about my New Year's Resolutions cuz I didnt get
much of a chance to make it today cuz I went late to church ahaha
hmmm I have many, but Ill only list some of them:
1. Maintain good and strong relationships with my friends and family
2. Do not lessen, but increase in my faith with Him
3. Live more open mindedly
4. Try to get more serious about school
5. Try finding out if what I want to do now is really what I want to do for the rest of my life
6. Continue to learn about myself and others
Lets all hope we can accomplish our goals this year! :]]